Divorced: Age 24

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 I have spent the last six weeks as a camp counselor in "no man’s land", Missouri, changing the lives of inner-city youth. Outside of the camp site, there were millions of acres of farmland, plenty of trees, and no cell phone service. The nearest store was almost an hour away and it was simply a Wal-Mart. Honestly, sometimes going away to a "no man’s land" is just what we need to clear our mind and reconnect with God. So I'm grateful.  I want to share something I experienced out there in those majestic woods.

One day at camp, I was headed to teach a canoeing class to ten students on the lake. Before class in the middle of the woods, I stopped to sit on a bench in order to prepare a bible study to share with my class. I was spraying bug repellent on, because my bug bite count was nearly 65 at this point and in the midst of my spraying, a major epiphany occured. I don't know why God chose this moment to speak but he did in a major way. These words came to me...

Divorced at 24. I was like I've never been married ..what? Yes, I've dated and many would agree because I have not slept with any of my" boyfriends", never created any soul ties, or exchanged marriage vows, being divorced was impossible. This girl has not yet nodded in agreement to the scripture, "and the two shall become one."  So what analogy was God trying to teach me? As I pondered over these thoughts, I went over my recent heart break. I thought of the boundaries I had let slip, the emotional attachments I had made without God's permission, and the inconsistency of my words and actions in that "situationship". I could honestly say maybe, I was emotionally divorcing. UGH EW. I felt so bad, my silly self started singing, "How diiiid youuuu get hereeeee..." in my Deborah Cox voice (hahaha).

Anyway, the bible says adultery begins in the heart. Jesus says, "If a man looks at a woman with lust in his heart, he has committed adultery." So, he is letting us know EVERYTHING BEGINS WITH THE HEART! When we give away our heart to someone who is not called to be our spouse, in a way we are practicing adultery and divorce. No wonder marriages aren't lasting anymore. We date as many people as we change our outfits in a week. How do we expect to stay married assuming a ceremony will automatically change those bad habits? In a world where dating is used for leisurely fun and not as a means to walk toward a lasting marriage, it is important to look at handling the heart of those you date carefully and purely. You should expect the person you date to handle your heart with care as well!

So God and I began to go through scripture and he showed me the verse Revelation 2:4. "But I have this complaint against you. You don't love me or each other as you did at first!" It was him calling me back to my first love, Jesus.  I am supposed to be so wrapped and satisfied in him that when it's time for me to surrender my heart to my man, God will give the OK. Just like our earthly fathers are suppose to be our first example of love and they give us away at the alter on our wedding day... I want to be so consumed with Christ that I don't let any man walk down the aisle of my heart unless my father God says so.

I was just so shocked that God revealed this to me. I had to let his word wash me and heal me from my past. I've always said I never want to enter a marriage with lots of baggage for my husband to unpack. I want to start early guarding my heart and emotions so I am ready when my husband comes. IN A GREATER SCOPE OF THINGS....I would like to close with this. Like I am intentionally preparing my heart for "the one", we've got to be intentional about guarding/preparing our heart for THE SON. (Matthew 25) Jesus, tells us he will be returning for his church whom he makes reference to as a bride. Earthly realities are simply metaphors for spiritual truths! Let's get our hearts ready for our heavenly home and the return of our saviour! When we feast with him in eternity that will be the ultimate wedding day :)


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